I trust in God but have no answers.

 

When I look up to the mountains I know it is God that is in control and that if He does not do things through me they are in vain. I also do not have the faintest idea why some people suffer, are ill, live through war and why the world is so fucked up but I know we created the world we live in and we want to blame God for our mess. We so desperately want answers but all for now I will shut up and let God be God.

In the word of Queen: 

"Just look at all those hungry mouths we have to feed

Take a look at all the suffering we breed
So many lonely faces scattered all around
Searching for what they need

Is this the world we created?
What did we do it for?
Is this the world we invaded
Against the law?
So it seems in the end
Is this what we're all living for today?
The world that we created

You know that every day a helpless child is born
Who needs some loving care inside a happy home
Somewhere, a wealthy man is sitting on his throne
Waiting for life to go by

Oh-oh, is this the world we created?
We made it on our own
Is this the world we devasted, right to the bone?
If there's a God in the sky, looking down
What can he think of what we've done
To the world that He created?"

When everything went wrong in Job's life this is how God answered him:

1Then the LORD answered Job out of the whirlwind, and said,

2Who is this that darkeneth counsel

By words without knowledge?

3Gird up now thy loins like a man;

For I will demand of thee, and answer thou me.

4Where wast thou when I laid the foundations of the earth?

Declare, if thou hast understanding.

5Who hath laid the measures thereof, if thou knowest?

Or who hath stretched the line upon it?

6Whereupon are the foundations thereof fastened?

Or who laid the corner stone thereof;

7When the morning stars sang together,

And all the sons of God shouted for joy?

8Or who shut up the sea with doors,

When it brake forth, as if it had issued out of the womb?

9When I made the cloud the garment thereof,

And thick darkness a swaddlingband for it,

10And brake up for it my decreed place,

And set bars and doors,

11And said, Hitherto shalt thou come, but no further:

And here shall thy proud waves be stayed?

12Hast thou commanded the morning since thy days;

And caused the dayspring to know his place;

13That it might take hold of the ends of the earth,

That the wicked might be shaken out of it?

14It is turned as clay to the seal;

And they stand as a garment.

15And from the wicked their light is withholden,

And the high arm shall be broken.

16Hast thou entered into the springs of the sea?

Or hast thou walked in the search of the depth?

17Have the gates of death been opened unto thee?

Or hast thou seen the doors of the shadow of death?

18Hast thou perceived the breadth of the earth?

Declare if thou knowest it all.

19Where is the way where light dwelleth?

And as for darkness, where is the place thereof,

20That thou shouldest take it to the bound thereof,

And that thou shouldest know the paths to the house thereof?

21Knowest thou it, because thou wast then born?

Or because the number of thy days is great?

22Hast thou entered into the treasures of the snow?

Or hast thou seen the treasures of the hail,

23Which I have reserved against the time of trouble,

Against the day of battle and war?

24By what way is the light parted,

Which scattereth the east wind upon the earth?

25Who hath divided a watercourse for the overflowing of waters,

Or a way for the lightning of thunder;

26To cause it to rain on the earth, where no man is;

On the wilderness, wherein there is no man;

27To satisfy the desolate and waste ground;

And to cause the bud of the tender herb to spring forth?

28Hath the rain a father?

Or who hath begotten the drops of dew?

29Out of whose womb came the ice?

And the hoary frost of heaven, who hath gendered it?

30The waters are hid as with a stone,

And the face of the deep is frozen.

31Canst thou bind the sweet influences of Pleiades,

Or loose the bands of Orion?

32Canst thou bring forth Mazzaroth in his season?

Or canst thou guide Arcturus with his sons?

33Knowest thou the ordinances of heaven?

Canst thou set the dominion thereof in the earth?

34Canst thou lift up thy voice to the clouds,

That abundance of waters may cover thee?

35Canst thou send lightnings, that they may go,

And say unto thee, Here we are?

36Who hath put wisdom in the inward parts?

Or who hath given understanding to the heart?

37Who can number the clouds in wisdom?

Or who can stay the bottles of heaven,

38When the dust groweth into hardness,

And the clods cleave fast together?

39Wilt thou hunt the prey for the lion?

Or fill the appetite of the young lions,

40When they couch in their dens,

And abide in the covert to lie in wait?

41Who provideth for the raven his food?

When his young ones cry unto God,

They wander for lack of meat.